“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.” ― Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

I got to hand it to you. It took some time to think about the subject of the fan video of this week. It was not like there wasn't a lot happening in the episode. Far from it but it wasn't until my friend wrote her Thinky Thoughts it dawned on me. It connected nicely to the AKF easter egg that was on the last episode. Depression and how it effects the ones that are close to you and how they all should keep fighting against it. How Castiel is now is also how "Love yourself first" connects to it. Sam's and Dean's voice are not reaching him even though they are his family. The ones that matter to him more than anything can't do anything to help him because he doesn't think he matters.

Quote from Anna's Thinky Thoughts

The notion of a "Chosen One" was mentioned. I'm kind of leaning towards it being Cas. I have no doubt that Sam and Dean will defeat Amara, but I think perhaps that Cas will be the sacrifice in order to do so. I think that little talk the boys were having at the end might be foreshadowing Cas' ultimate decision and they're need to respect it. That of course is just my little theory.
Friendship like family is a relationship that can survive the test of time and remain unconditional. For most people it is a combination of affection, loyalty, love, respect, and trust. To be there for the good and the bad. Helping with mistakes you have made even if you disagree with something. Sam and Dean are doing just that with Cas but he needs to do his part. At the moment he is not. He is only waiting for the slaughter because he thinks he is not good for anything else. His depression is clear. He is hiding and has lost himself into redundant tv shows. But we do see a light at the end of the tunnel. He still values his family's suggestions but his mindset needs to change that he understands them.

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Depression symptoms and warning signs

Some people describe depression as “living in a black hole” or having a feeling of impending doom. However, some depressed people don't feel sad at all—they may feel lifeless, empty, and apathetic, or men in particular may even feel angry, aggressive, and restless.

Whatever the symptoms, depression is different from normal sadness in that it engulfs your day-to-day life, interfering with your ability to work, study, eat, sleep, and have fun. The feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and worthlessness are intense and unrelenting, with little, if any, relief.
I can identify with Cas choosing TV to lose himself and escape. When I was long time unemployed I hid in a similar thing to not to think how bad things were getting or how long that would continue. It was my way to survive that time. My friends and family were there but I did not want to "bother" them about my mindset nor to talk about it. That was years ago though and only recently I have been reminded about that situation again. This time it has been TV shows and work that has helped me through being stuck inside four walls after my accident. I don't know if the professionals would say it is healthy but in both cases these things have helped me cope with also the help of family and friends. And it also spared them taking a bit of the burden. People have different ways to cope things.

BUT, Cas is further in the rabbit hole in his situation. Hiding from his thoughts and hardly noticing the situation around him or that he has given up. He doesn't listen Sam nor Dean and he needs to be shaken awake from his mindset or he will indeed eventually fail that has been his greatest fear all along.

That is why I chose this video too. The fight song is fitting for Castiel and for Dean and Sam because they need to always keep fighting and they are not alone. They have each other. The editing is great on the video. It matches the characters to the part of the song and all three characters have their parts to fight back. I think all three will have prominent roles in the season finale.



Team Free Will - Fight song made by: Angel Dove


Fight Song by Rachel Platten

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep
Everybody's worried about me
In too deep
Say I'm in too deep (in too deep)
And it's been two years
I miss my home
But there's a fire burning in my bones
Still believe
Yeah, I still believe

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

A lot of fight left in me

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

This is my fight song (Hey!)
Take back my life song (Hey!)
Prove I'm alright song (Hey!)
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong (I'll be strong)
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

No I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Rachel Ashley Platten (born May 20, 1981) is an American singer and songwriter. Her third studio album and major-label debut, Wildfire, reached number five in the US and spawned the top ten singles "Fight Song" and "Stand by You". "Fight Song" peaked at number six on Billboard Hot 100 and topped the UK Singles Chart. "Stand by You" so far peaked at number thirty-seven on Billboard Hot 100 becoming her second top 40 hit.
Quotes:

Jofiel: So perfect. Castiel -- Heaven's most wanted possessed by Heaven's most hated.
Sam: Listen. Um, I know I came down on the side of wanting Cas to deal with Amara, so-
Dean: Well, that's what he wanted though, right? Besides, didn't we say we're gonna swear off getting in the way when one person makes a choice the other didn't agree with?
Sam: Yeah, um. Yeah, we did say that.
Dean: So.
Sam: Okay. So, that's our policy.
Dean: Which sounds damn good. Well, let's go find that idiot and bring him home.
Minutiae

The VFX team inserted AKF as a tribute to Always Keep Fighting on the top of a building in one scene.

AKF

References:


en.wikipedia.org
goodreads.com
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supernaturalwiki.com

Cover art by: FIGHT THE FAIRIES! @Alice_Mars_MannHer Instagram

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