Sam defends that it's not like they pulled the trigger. Dean thinks they might as well have. That is the guilt of a tired mind. Then Dean says he's tired! Man, have I figured out these guys or what? He's tired of fighting who he's supposed to be. Sam gets a little angry over this talk, but not rage angry so it's okay. "Well you think maybe you could take half a second and stop trying to sacrifice yourself for a change? Maybe we could actually stick together?" Dean somberly looks down. "I don't think so." So Sam seriously wants to know why not. Oh Sam, haven't you learned from the past? Every time you ask Dean for honesty like this it ends up really hurting you.
"I just don't believe," Dean starts. "In what?" Sam asks. "In you." Back to Sam, whose heart sinks like the Titanic. He even gives his somber profile of despair. Dean goes on. "I don't know if it's gonna be demon blood, or some other demon chick, or what, but I do know they're going to find a way to turn you." Sam listens, looking pretty crushed. "So you're saying I'm not strong enough." "You're angry, you're self-righteous. Lucifer's going to wear you to the prom man it's just a matter of time." Now Sam is teary. "Don't say that to me. Not you, of all people." Dean continues as stoic as he can be. "I don't want to, but it's the truth. And when Satan takes you over, there's got to be someone there to fight him. And it ain't gonna be that kid. So it's gotta be me." Sam realizes he's about to completely lose it and leaves, locking the door behind him. Oh Sammy! Come here for that hug. I need one too after seeing that. I don't care if Dean was being honest or is hurting, you just don't crush the one person who believes in you like that. I was a broken mess the first few times I saw that scene. It was just as bad as Sam's heartbreak over "that makes you a monster."
As a side note, a few theories are being tossed around as to why Dean did that to Sam. I said in my review on blogcritics that I saw this as Dean trying to push Sam away, get him mad enough to let him go, but then one someone who talks episode with me each week (thanks Lynn!) had a different theory. Dean meant every bit of it. He sees Sam as Lucifer in "The End," he realizes through "The Song Remains The Same" that anyone can be motivated to say yes under the right circumstances, and then sees Sam fall to Famine's spell in "My Bloody Valentine." Not to mention all that baggage and mistrust left over from last season. No, he doesn't believe in Sam and is so raw emotionally he might as well say it. He has nothing left to lose. How utterly tragic.
Castiel watches Adam sleep and then Bobby rolls in just in time to see Sam come out of the basement. He knows that Sam is really broken up. "How's he doing?" Bobby asks. Sam can only sigh, knowing that if he says a word right now, he'll bust out in tears. Then Bobby asks how Sam is doing. You know Sam, as many times as you've been asking people lately how they've been doing when it's clear they're falling apart, you've got this coming. Sam only gives Bobby a look of forlorn.
What's interesting is this really annoys Castiel and he heads for the basement. Castiel is being protective of Sam? Aww, what a pal. Sadly, not a very smart pal. He hears a crash, opens the little crack on the door and finds the chair knocked over. "Dean?" Naturally, he gets no answer. So Castiel opens the door, steps in and investigates. You really should have brought Sam, Cas. Dean steps out from behind the cabinet and sure enough, he's drawn an angel banishing sigil on it. He smacks it with his hand and Castiel bursts away screaming. Dean then escapes through a cellar door. Bobby's basement has a cellar door? That's new. Why didn't Sam take that last year instead of going upstairs to escape? He needed his coat? Weird. Me thinks that's an afterthought.
Sam must have heard Castiel screaming, for he rushes in where Bobby and Adam are and grabs his coat. "Where's Cas?" Bobby asks. "Blown to Oz," Sam says. Well that's one good way of putting it. Sam is pretty irritated and plans to go get Dean. He couldn't have gone too far. He tells Bobby to watch Adam. "How? You may have noticed he's got a slight height advantage." Hee, Bobby and his quips. Sam doesn't have time for details, telling him to cuff him to his chair or something. "Just watch him." Ooh, me thinks Sam is cracking around the edges a little.
While Bobby does his job, Adam is having one of those vivid dreams. He's at a playground (what's with angels meeting at playgrounds?) and he sits on a bench looking hopeful. "Your mom's not coming you know." There's Zachariah sitting next to him. Ruh-roh! Zack notices this is the park his mom took him on his day off. She's not coming, not yet, but will soon. Adam figures out he's Zachariah. Yep. Zack isn't happy he wasn't where he was supposed to be and can't find him either. He knows that MO, Adam must be with Sam and Dean. Yep. Zack warns they can't be trusted. "You know Sam and Dean Winchester are psychotically, irrationally, erotically co-dependent on each other, right?" Ooh, Zack's a slash fan. I'm not surprised.
Adam says that they've said a few things about him. Ah, how fun being in the middle of a feud like that. Zack in an arrogant tone that would make me want to punch him more than believe him says they don't give a crap about him. They'd rather save each other than save the planet. "They're not your family, understand?" Adam isn't convinced, until Zack pushes the mom button again. Yep, that does it. Adam pops awake.
This is one of my favorite scenes not only in this episode, but probably this season. I have no idea why, but I love it. Maybe because someone gets to knock some sense into Dean for a change. A religious nut is preaching on the street corner, holding his bible and telling everyone the end in nigh. He knows because the angels have been talking to him. Angels really like nut jobs, don't they? Dean walks up to him and interrupts. "I'm Dean Winchester, do you know who I am?" "Dear God." "I'll take that as a yes." Ha, more religious humor.
Dean wants him to pray to his angel buddies, let them know that he's here. The man drops to his knees and starts with the Lord's prayer. I also just noticed something in continuation with the bar last week. Sure, the Schultz beer name has been around for a while, but they're in front of a bar that has both the El Sol and Schultz neon signs. How cool. Suddenly that oh so familiar stern voice comes out of nowhere. "You pray too loud." Castiel touches him and the man goes down. Castiel then grabs Dean and throws him into the alley. Oh no, Dean's on the bad side of a pissed off angel. You did ask for this Dean with that banishing trick.
"What are you crazy?" Dean asks. He so is! "I rebelled for this!" Castiel says, tossing him around against another wall. Then he punches Dean hard twice. "So you could surrender to them?" He grabs Dean and throws him against the opposite wall then gut punches him twice. Dean's mouth is bleeding now. "Cas, please," he pleads, but Cas just throws him against the other wall again. He grabs him tight and snarls in his face. "I gave everything for you and this is what you give to me?" Cas pulls him away from the wall, punches him hard and Dean stumbles backward. So Cas then kicks him hard and Dean goes flying into a fence. Ouch!