Page 4 of 6Next scene Sam is seen sitting in bed, staring off into space, not looking quite himself. Dean comes in and asks Sam if heâ€™s okay. Heâ€™s pretty motionless and says heâ€™s not okay. â€œIâ€¦I amâ€¦awesome.â€ Oh, so heâ€™s stoned out of his gourd. Dean is kind of pissed, asking if they gave him something. â€œThey gave me everything. Itâ€™s spectacu lacular.â€ Then he laughs. Oh, how long has it been since weâ€™ve seen Sammy laugh? Iâ€™ll take it any way I can get it. Dean mentions he was always a happy drunk. Really? Iâ€™d love to see that. More please!
Sam gets a moment of coherence and mentions to Dean the arrogant bastard, I mean doctor wasnâ€™t a wraith. Dean knows. He doesnâ€™t understand, he saw it in the mirror. â€œOr youâ€™re seeing things,â€ Sam says with that slur in his voice. â€œMaybe youâ€™re going crazy.â€ Dean denies this, but since Samâ€™s inhibitions are gone in a delightful way, we get to actually hear what heâ€™s thinking. â€œWell, come on, I mean youâ€™ve been at least half crazy for a long time, since you got back from Hell or since before that even. Weâ€™re in a mental hospital (laughs), maybe youâ€™ve finally cracked. Maybe now you are really, for real crazy.â€ The delivery of these lines by Sam is just precious. He needs to get drugged up FAR more often. I do wonder if he really thinks that though. Interesting.
Dean declares he made a mistake. Heâ€™ll find the thing. So now Sam goes into supportive, â€œhumor my big brotherâ€ mode, holding onto Deanâ€™s shoulder. â€œOkay, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. Itâ€™s okay, hey, hey, look at me. Itâ€™s okay, because youâ€™re my brother and I still luv ya.â€ Dean gives him a nervous smile while Sam gives another serious show of support before grabbing Deanâ€™s nose. â€œBoop!â€ Bwah! He is out of his mind. Anyone EVER think weâ€™d ever see this from Sam? Sam laughs, Dean really really wants to kill him now. I rewind this scene a few times and rewatch, for itâ€™s a Sam fanâ€™s dream.
Dean walks down the hall and runs into therapist chick again. Sheâ€™s back to play devilâ€™s advocate and wonders if heâ€™s still hunting that wraith. â€œPeople are dying,â€ Dean says. She points out people die all the time. Dean isnâ€™t in a humoring mood this time, telling her to let him do his job. Heâ€™s saving her life. â€œItâ€™s not my life Iâ€™m worried about.â€ Dean goes off on her, declaring heâ€™s fine. She doesnâ€™t buy it and lets him know all this pressure and guilt is killing him. He canâ€™t save everybody. Then suddenly, her expression turns vicious. â€œHell, these days, you canâ€™t save anybody. Dean.â€ Heâ€™s surprised so she really lets go. â€œThe truth Dean. You got Ellen and Jo killed. You shot Lucifer but you couldnâ€™t gank him. You couldnâ€™t stop Sam from killing Lilith and oh, yeah, you broke the first seal. All you do is fail. Did you really think that you Dean Winchester, with a GED and a give â€˜em hell attitude were going to beat the devil? Please, the world is going to burn and thereâ€™s nothing you can do about it.â€ Ooh, a bit too â€œon the noseâ€ huh?
Dean naturally doesnâ€™t take this well and demands to know who she is and how she knows this. A nearby orderly, watching with confusion, tells him to settle down. Dean shouts at the doctor some more so the orderly comes over and repeats his comment. Dean asks him â€œwho is she?â€ but surprise, thereâ€™s no one there. The orderly points out thereâ€™s nobody there. Dean looks at the doctor, who stares him down with eeevilll. â€œIâ€™m not real Dean. Iâ€™m in your head. Because you are going crazy.â€ Ooh, what a twist! She was never real. So all those questions, all that worry, it was all Dean bringing it to the surface? Yikes! That poor boy. The burden of saving the world is really consuming him, isnâ€™t it? Itâ€™s so rare to get a look like this into Deanâ€™s head. Itâ€™s stunning. Heâ€™s a mess.
Now sheâ€™s gone. He tells the orderly to leave him alone and walks down the hall. A doctor and evil perky nurse are standing there. They look like wraiths in the mirror. Dean lets it go and walks down the hall completely disturbed. He passes two patients. Theyâ€™re wraiths in the mirror too. He tries to go through a door, but itâ€™s locked. So, he slides down the wall and cowers in the corner, having a full fledged freak out. Thatâ€™s really cool and all, but somehow off camera he manages to pull it together and get to the common area. Everyone speculate how that happened.
Samâ€™s turn and his situation isnâ€™t much better. If anything, it could be worse. His talk with a doctor is real and itâ€™s just as harsh as Deanâ€™s hallucination. At least we think itâ€™s real. Who knows? While Sam stares out the window being all pensive in his room, that arrogant bastard, I mean the doctor, asks if Sam wanted to see him. Yes, Sam is sorry and feels horrible about what he did. He confesses he thought he was a monster. The doctor knows, but asks why. Sam avoids the question by pointing out he had a moment of clarity. Thereâ€™s no such thing as monsters. Ah, what a good liar.
The problem is the monster thing isnâ€™t whatâ€™s bothering the doctor. â€œMonsters are the least of your problems.â€ Sam doesnâ€™t understand. â€œPeople can learn to live with delusions but the anger I saw in youâ€¦you hurt those two men, you were going to kill me. The look in your eyes when you came after me, itâ€™s like you were barely even human. Like a man possessed.â€ Ouch, the things that Sam hates hearing about himself. Time to break out the sad puppy dog eyes! The doctor really hits home with Sam. The revelation about his anger crushes him and he admits he knows. Then with those lost puppy eyes, he pleads for another chance. The doctor agrees, but heâ€™ll have to go about the hospital under supervision. He leaves Sam with one stinging warning. One more outburst and Sam will be transferred to a facility for those with violent behaviors. They wonâ€™t be as kind. The thought frightens the crap out of Sam. Me, I want to see that.
Sam next gets to join Dean in the common area. Dean is sitting there alone, looking kind of out of it. Sam asks him whatâ€™s wrong. â€œItâ€™s not the demon blood Sam. It never was.â€ Sam is stunned. â€œThe problem was you, it was always you, the lies, your arrogance, the black spot on your soul.â€ Okay, so this is likely a sign that Sam never told Dean what Ruby said after he killed Lilith, about how he didnâ€™t need the demon blood. Iâ€™m not at all surprised. Another angry patient comes up to Sam. â€œNow weâ€™re gonna die because of you.â€ Now heâ€™s surrounded by an angry mob, pushing and shoving him around.
Thatâ€™s all it takes to light Samâ€™s fuse. He starts swinging. In a pretty cool visual, heâ€™s then alone and swiping violently at air. Two orderlies come to restrain him. He punches one but the other gets a good hold and they both grab him. Dean sits by the window cowering, watching the whole thing with nervousness. Sam struggles but theyâ€™ve got him tight. â€œLeave me alone!â€ He yells over and over again before being dragged away. Dean stays exactly where he is, questioning whatâ€™s happening.